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Friday, May 14

Emotions

I am happy to share a link to a site that creates free custom welcome home military banners. My sister and a friend recently got them and from the photos Ive seen the signs look amazing. I was very impressed. I think the idea is fabulous. I hope that all our troops can be greeted by a great big sign of love and appreciation for all they do.

I was thinking about creating one of these signs. Even went through the motions but ultimately could not complete it. The emotion this involves is just too much right now. The thought that J is leaving, the reality of him being gone and the overwhelming joy and anxiety of when he returns is just more than I can deal with at the moment. The emotions become a jumble and I can feel myself succumbing to the sadness and fear. Its easier to walk away. Do some dishes. Do some laundry. Do anything that lets me forget that our world is about to take a major detour.

I preach the preach very well and try my best to support those that need it but right now I don't know if my own words are sinking in. Heck I don't even remember what they are. They seem to sound so good when I say them to others but here I am floundering like a fish out of water. Confused and disoriented. I know I have the strength to deal with the changes that lie ahead. I just need to breathe, focus and enjoy today. Because today we are together!

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  1. If you ever need to talk I can call you! Hang in there.Too bad you are not here, we could do some traveling! Miss you!

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  2. I wish I would have known about the homecoming banner for when my guy got home. But if you need a girls night out anytime let me know. Or just someone to talk too I'm here :).

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  3. I wish I would have known sooner Nicole, I would have totally shared the link with you.

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  4. I'm sorry hun. Walking away and enjoying your time together sounds like your best coping mechanism. And thats OK!!! Remember that you have LOTS of people ready and willing to chat, and I know I always have tons of randomness that doesn't pertain to the military (granted its mostly about school and kids...) to distract you! :-)

    LOVE YA

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